the encouragement is the least i can do when i see another like me having a tough time. juggling school, trying to make a career or something for yourself, plus whatever job, some type of girlfriend and trying to ride enough to call yourself a cyclist can all add up not to forget our favorite shadow cape friend by the name of anxiety. it’s a struggle you’re not alone on man.
it’s awesome to know another person who’s on the same page as me about this and that i’m not alone. this really does mean a lot.
You’ve got to be content with spending time by yourself because you are the only company you have when you’re alone.
And If you can’t spend time alone, it shows that you are unhappy with who you are.
Feeling like hammered dog shit and i just want to quit school and relax for a while.
I’m totally spent.
Good thing we only have a couple of weeks left because i don’t know how much longer I can last this semester.
I have this dumb communications class with this demanding project coming up that I’m stressing so hard. But I can do pretty crappy on it and be alright. I am usually a great student but this is an instance where I’m just like fuck I don’t even care just please let me pass and never have to do some bullshit like this ever again.
I have an article review due tomorrow and there are several due one per week that we have to find our own stupid article about something related to our desired career and this next to last one I just don’t fucking care it’s 4 in the morning and I can’t keep my eyes open and I’ve made no progress and shits due at 9:30 and I know anything I write between now and then would be rubbish so I just don’t care. It sucks to feel like a bad student but man fuck this class it’s so dumb.
I’ll pass and get the project done but for tonight I’m going the f to sleep and saying f that article review because it’s bull crap right now.
I feel like a worthless piece of shit for giving up but I seriously just can’t do it